“For we live by faith, not by sight.” – 2 Corinthians 5:7
I never thought of myself as a control freak, but as the years go by I’ve realized just how much I want to be in control of my life. It’s not that I have to have everything my way… but I do like order. I like to have a 5 year, 10 year… heck, a 50 year plan. It’s good in some ways. Plans keep you on course. They help you accomplish goals and dreams.
The problem is… sometimes I forget to let God in on it.
And sometimes, His plan looks totally different. It freaks me out, I’m not going to lie.
Recently, life happened, as it does… and I had to go off-course. My well-thought-out plans went out the door and I didn’t like that very much. Improvising is not my favorite.
Now, I know that God’s plans are best because He knows our hearts better than we do (I talk about that over on THIS post).
What bothers me is the unknown. A lot of my conversations with Him go something like this… “OK, God. I’m cool with your plan… but could you let me in on it? I’d LOVE to know what it is so that I can go ahead and plan for it, too! Love, Lauren.”
Kind of funny. I’m basically saying “Hey, I trust you… but I still want to somehow control the situation.”
I think He’s trying to teach me about trusting Him in the process. After all, the process is LIFE itself, isn’t it?
I’m learning that when my mind is too small to see the big picture, I have to let go of control. If I truly believe (as I say I do) that His plan IS best, then I have to embrace the unknown and walk with Him. That’s kind of the whole idea of faith. And when I do, it’s beautiful. He takes the weight off of my shoulders and I am able to fully live.
So let’s fully live. What do we need to let go of in order to fully trust in Him? What’s holding us back?
I promise you, it’s not worth holding onto.